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Tuesday, November 30, 2010, 11:48 PM
Day 38
A note to myself, never cut a car which was modified to the max, driving slow on the fast lane. Otherwise, this will happen. 1. Get yourself challenged 2. If your ego is high, you'll accept it 3. Speed up to 180km/h - 200km/h (during lunchtime) 4. Cutting lanes *thumbs up* (hell yeah! My favourite) 5. Make sure you win!!! Yeah.. So he was tailgating me from Summit USJ until somewhere in KESAS. I lost track of him half way. And I'm so proud to say, I WINNNN! Yup. Amateur thinking. But its the adrenaline rush. Sharp cornering. I thought I was about to meet God in my afterlife. Fun. Sunday, November 28, 2010, 4:32 PM
Day 36
Don't try to make a conclusion of my life when you just only step foot in 1/100 of my life. Do not ever tell me what is right and what is wrong. And, don't ever try to judge me, when you know completely nothing, and I meant NOTHING about me! Friday, November 26, 2010, 12:01 AM
Day 32.
Spent my day with a bunch of dearest gay sakais. Wednesday, November 24, 2010, 11:43 PM
Day 31
Thanks Joel for inviting my to Ben's BBQ party. It was awesome. ♥ the food. And you know what's the best thing? I got chased by police on the way back. *thumbs up* BUT! They couldn't catch up :) I wish you was there with me in the BBQ party.. Tuesday, November 23, 2010, 10:36 PM
Day 30.
It's been a month now from the day he walked out of my life. Going through everything, mostly by myself.. Yes, my dear friends were there for me.. But for how long? They too, have their own problems. Walking alone in the dark shadows is one of my biggest fear. But you were once there for me, holding my hand, stepping through the shadows.. How I wish, that you're still here with me. I miss you very much.. Monday, November 22, 2010, 10:49 PM
Day 29
It keeps me wonder.. How a person can totally turned his/her back to the person whom they were so madly in loved with before? Ignorance.. Complete cold-shoulder.. What are these? Is this what humans are turning into? So called bullshitting your partner, telling them..thatt.... "No matter what happens, I'll always stand by yourside, and we'll go through it together.." Perhaps, words will only be words.. Please.. Do not ever say something which you know best, that you'll never mean it. Because we all know, life is full of karmas.. Sunday, November 21, 2010, 11:44 AM
Day 28.
After all the depressing posts, I guess it'll be fair if this post addressed to my dear friends.. I've found this beautiful quote, and I shall address it to you all My friends who were there to support me, who were there to cheer me up, and who were there to lend me a shoulder.. "No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes to heal, you'll never go through it without your friends." Saturday, November 20, 2010, 10:01 PM
Day 27. -Silence
Silence.. Are you sure that silence is your best friend now? Or are you confused? ..that.... You're only avoiding your friends, staying away from your friends while flirting around on messenger? Special feelings.. How fast it is for you to move on.. Perhaps, you've never stop and take a walk with me before.. Friday, November 19, 2010, 9:27 AM
Day 26.
I'm getting more and more tired as each day passed. Was it because of the hectic life I've put myself in? Or was it because you kept mingling in my mind and wouldn't give me peace? Yeah, you've seen that right. I am doing great!!! Only with my friends around.. Why can't I let you go? What is it that kept me hanging up on the 100th floor with only a thin thread tied around my neck? Wednesday, November 17, 2010, 10:31 PM
Day 24
Finally. I was sick yesterday.. Well, I hope that explained why I never online yesterday.. Tuesday, November 16, 2010, 12:36 AM
Day 22. -It was supposed to be..-
If.. And only if, we made it until today.. It'll be our 5th month anniversary.. But I guess not.. You're not here for me anymore.. No.. You don't even treat me as your friend anymore.. And this is what you said that you'll be with me for all ups and downs..? Go ahead.. Promise another girl that you'll be there for her at all time.. Promise her that you'll protect her.. Promise her that you'll never hurt her.. Promise her that you'll cherish her forever.. Tell her that you'll love her for eternity.. But you know well, that you never actually know the true meaning of love, my dear.. Sunday, November 14, 2010, 9:20 PM
Day 21
I'm getting tired. Tired of falling.. Tired of trembling down under.. Over and over again.. I'm tired, of standing up all alone.. I'm tired, watching everyone walking side by side with their beloved.. I'm tired, of looking at my pathetic self.. Saturday, November 13, 2010, 10:44 PM
Day 20
I had a hundred, thousand and millions of words to describe my feelings towards you. But just before I can say it out to you, You shoved me off by telling me, that it is Goodbye. Friday, November 12, 2010, 9:59 PM
Day 19
Celebrated Joel's advanced birthday today. Hope he likes it. Moving on with the day by spending it with Ee Lyn. Watched this movie. Very touching in the end. And yeah, I cried. Can't believe. Maybe because the story strikes right on my broken heart. Sigh Thursday, November 11, 2010, 10:31 PM
Day 18
Reading back the messages that you've once sent to me before. Lying to myself that this are just a dream. But knowing the truth that this is reality, that you've no longer love me like you'd once sworn to me, it really breaks me apart. Wednesday, November 10, 2010, 9:01 AM
Day 17
Went to college so freaking early. And I came across this blog post by Yvvone. 'Guys are as sensitive as girls. They feel insecure. They have their alter egos. But you see, all these things that gets into the way, will probably make you slip something away. Something, that you might regret for the rest of your life. Sometimes we need to more frank with our feelings. Put a little effort. Make the person you secretly love know you are there. Or at least, make that secret not so a secret.' Truthfully, this post makes me think again. I didn't know that guys were this sensitive. I mean come on, guys and their super high egos. Sighh.. 12:09 AM
Day 16
I'm so good that Mun Chung said this to me. "You look like so happy" Meanwhile Sara, on the other hand.. asked me.. "Do you still love him?" Yes, Sara. I do. I'm still in love with him though he will no longer be mine. Monday, November 8, 2010, 10:46 PM
Day 15
You’re the one I can’t forget No matter how far apart we are My voice cries out and I know we’ll meet again I can’t forget you That time which was brittle as glass Still resides within my heart And will not disappear It’s so lonely Even though I thought the gentle smile In my photo album would last forever Now on this endless journey In which I’ve destroyed everything I embrace a tiny bit of happiness To get me through the days Even now a joyous face is branded on Yet your body still fades away That frame, that phrase You hurt me and chose a different rail Why do people’s feelings change? I apologize and gives thanks To my beloved days and to you No matter how it turns out.. My feelings towards you will never change Sunday, November 7, 2010, 12:27 PM
Day 14
I can’t take this anymore Really, I’m going crazy The love in our hearts when we first met Where has it gone to? I said, we are over But that’s not what my heart wants to say Sitting and hesitating for what I said For a moment, I was like an idiot regretting There is nothing that can drive me insane I’m still loving you My tears are still not enough Even when it’s hurting a lot I’ll try finding my way back Goodbye.. Saturday, November 6, 2010, 11:07 PM
Day 13.
Where's Day 12? Well, I spent Day 12 thinking bout the amount of days we had together. I came to this realization, that all this while.. He was really committed to this relationship. I guess I was the idiot in this relationship. I'm sorry that I could not show affection to you. But I thought that you can feel what I felt inside. I thought you can feel whats inside my heart. My feelings towards you. However, I never expect you to enjoy to the fullest and flirt right after we break. That is when I doubt that you've ever been serious with me. I really want to whine more here. But I'm being pathetic am I? Thursday, November 4, 2010, 11:57 PM
Day 11.
Friend: So how are you now? Me : Good. Friend: Honestly.. Me: Yeah, I'm great *winks* Friend: You can't lie to my face, you know.. Truthfully, I'm very sorry for lying bout how I really am right now. But once again, that's the only way for everyone to be happy. Life is just trying to kill me brutally. Loving couples all around me. Love story on the television. Happy forever after with the one that you love the most. Why? Why must it happens now? Wednesday, November 3, 2010, 10:42 PM
Day 10
Time sure pass so darn quick. But to me, every second is like centuries in hell. "I thought watching you leave was hard, but knowing you weren't coming back was harder." Up until now, I still can't face the reality. Just how easy God can take away your happiness? Though, I'm very proud of myself. I'm able to convince my friends that 100% all good. And they believed me. Thanks. But only true friends know how I felt inside.. I really wish.. that... ..you're still mine.. 12:10 AM
Day 9, It hurts
You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her As if it were nothing, you kiss her You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her It seems that we're already too late Has our love already ended? Please at least say something to me We truly loved each other, can't we turn back? I'm the only one that is hurting tonight Have you changed? Am I no longer in your heart now? When I, I think about you It hurts, hurts, hurts so much You look at my tears as if it were nothing You continue to talk calmly again You told me cruelly that you couldn't deny That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets Are we already too late? Is our love over? Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so I can do better now, though we can't meet again I'm the only one in pain tonight Have you changed? Am I no longer in your heart now? When I, I think about you It hurts, hurts, hurts so much You're no longer your old self Because the you I loved And the you now are so different Are you that shocked? I just stood and cried Watching you going further away No way, I can't recognize You're not mine anymore Do you have to change? Can't you come back? Do you really have to change? Can't you come back? Do you have to change? Can't you come back? Why did you have to change? Can't you keep loving me? Oh, is this the end? Am I no longer in your heart now? When I, I think about you It hurts, hurts, hurts so much It hurts, it hurts It hurts, it hurts Monday, November 1, 2010, 10:11 PM
Day 8. P/s: I need a driver
I'm losing my mind. I'm losing my focus. I can barely count the times that I've almost got myself into an accident. Sometimes, I just don't know where my mind flies, where my soul wander.. 1:05 AM
I'm pathetic.
Yes, I am. My words can be harsh. But I thought it'll be the only way to refrain myself to keep hopes of getting back together. I guess, I'm wrong again. The true fact is, I really wish that I can take back all my words. Everything that I've said when you told me its over. There's no point regretting it now. Though, I never thought that we can never friends even when it ends. If you think by cutting all strings, I could forget you completely? It does not work that way, darling.. No, it doesn't.. 12:34 AM
Day 7.
I thought that it was a day for me to leave everything behind and enjoy myself just like how he flirts right after we broke up. BUT NOOO! He just must literally comes haunting my mind! Everything.. Everywhere I went today revolves our memory for being together once before. "Stop thinking bout him, Elaine" Right.. If it was that easy, I won't be whining and crying myself to bed? Up until now, I still could not believe that you can just let it go that easily, if you really did love me and prioritize our relationship before. I wish.. I wish that I am as cold-hearted as you. As cruel as you.. And as flirty as you.. |
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