Tried my best to get myself busy.
I guess its only words for me.

I can't lie to myself that I'm ready to move on.
I can't lie to myself that I hate you.
I also can't lie to myself that I can forget you.

But after all those little lies,
why can I lie to myself that it was a just a dream...?
That all of these never happened before?

You was once so serious to me,
but now you're treating all this like a junk?




Wake up, Elaine.





I'm just another failure.
No.. I'm not any perfect girl..
I'm not any remarkable person..

My darlings,
If I am,
none of this would have happened right?
And sad to say,
it happened again and again..


Honestly,
I just don't know how to face this world anymore.
Pretending that I'm alright, smiling and laughing like an idiot?
I can do that perfectly, but its killing me inside!



I feel like stabbing myself again and again.


Please..
End this misery for me?
Perhaps..
Death could be the only answer?