"Smile tho' your heart is aching.
Smile even though its breaking.."

-Charlie Chaplin-

My my..
Can you believe it?
It's already been THREE months since we're together as from today's date.

Though..
It's not that I'm not happy with him.
It's just that sometimes, I really hope that he understand how I feel too.

From my angle, it's as if he's a total workaholic.
Time spent = From 100% to 50%
Text Messages received per Day = From 100% to 35%
Calls received = Occasionally to Less than 3 times per week.

So what's this?
I AM trying to understand his condition now.
But no one is perfect.
All girlfriends are meant to be pampered, care of, spoilt and of course, to be loved.
When one doesn't receive any of this in the relationship, that relationship will become shaky.

I really wish I can spend time telling him how I feel,
since he's barely free to spend much time with me.
But,
what will happen when I do so?
Will he understand?
Or will he ignore me?
Or maybe he thinks that I doesn't support his job and never try to understand him, doesn't appreciate him and worst, never care about his feelings and thinks that I'm trying to pick a fight with him?

Been crying a lot recently because of him.
Good that he doesn't know bout it.
Although,
I really hope that it was him, the reason that I'll stop crying.
But sad to say,
it was because I cry until I fall asleep.
Lame though..

Sigh..
Where's the him that I first knew?
Where's the him that confessed his love to me?
I really miss that guy in him.

Sigh..
Nothing seems to be getting right for me.
NOTHING

I really wanted to blab out everything out here,
but then its like every post I posted here were to let everyone knows I'm being emo.



Though, sometimes I really wanted a person who I can talk to..